Breathing

You took my breathe away even when I wasn’t breathing,
I never knew if the air that I inhaled was dirty or clean.
When it was clean it was the sweetest breath that I’d ever take,
But when it was dirty I’d turn red and my heart would turn to lead.
The air I was breathing was so mixed I didn’t know if to breathe or not,
You could either sweeten my life or choke me to death,
Joy and pain.
Rain and shine.
Good and bad.
Yin and Yang.
It’s so hard to choose right from wrong when I'm with you,
Everything feels the same.
Which way is up and which is down, I couldn't tell,
So many different emotions and choices always clouded my judgement.
I couldn't tell if things looked good or bad,
The picture kept on moving, but I stood still, should I have moved with it?
I felt like I was losing my sight,
And I couldn't tell if I was wrong or right,
I 'm sure I was going insane after every fight.
Can you please make the world stop spinning?
I’m not drunk,not yet at least, but I'm not alright.
Can I please have one moment of clarity where everything isn't all topsy turvy?

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Let's play a game

The race is the same but the track is different.
The rules change based on who you play with,
The end result also may vary on how it’s played.
The longer you play the better you get it,
But the longer you play it becomes mundane.

You could keep on playing the same game over and over again,
You could also play the same game with different partners,
Or you could play a different game with different partners.
Whatever game you play or whoever you play with,
At the end of the day caution: results may vary.

We keep on playing the same game even though we know it’s lame.
Trying to hold on even though the game changes, what a shame.
We keep on playing the the game to tame our flame
Hoping one day even for the smallest bit of fame.
But when it all goes up in flames nobody wants to take the blame.

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I wish my mind wasn't the way it was, a thousand thoughts racing through it each second,

Good and bad, naughty and nice, all mixed together and played at the same tempo.

One thought  silencing the other out, like an angry little child.

A battle rages inside of me, my thoughts the players and my heart the judge.

The hearts most often than not is too weary to decide, 

Battling to keep my body alive and keep a straight face at the same time.

The wheels keep on turning while my heart keeps on yearning,
 for a small break.

A single intake of fresh air where it's allowed to breathe freely.

A split second to enjoy a break or hang out and flake.

On and on the battle will rages everyday till one decides to call it quits.

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Key to success

Where is, I can't find it, have you seen mine?
Everybody seems to have found it except me,
I've looked high and low, near and far and beyond yonder,
But I still haven't been able to find it.

Will you help me find it please?
Perhaps I can borrow yours, does it work that way?
I've tried a few but none of them seem to fit.
What the hell do I do now?

Can I live without finding it? it that an option?
I think I’m okay with that, I can live with myself,
If only my mind stopped nagging me to find it!
Showing me things that aren't there but could be.

If only I knew where to start looking,
Which cave haven’t I explored?
Which stone have I left unturned?
Wait... was it under my nose the whole time?

I don’t want to be the last to find it, but I think I maybe..
I need to find it at any cost and no matter what it takes.
Could someone help me find it before it's too late?
Help me, help me please! help me find my key to success.

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